I'm losing my mind

so last night i went to try on my dress.. and yes folks i have relized i REALLY need to diet!i also relized i am a saint bernard with a chiwawa mind.. yes i am freakin huge and wth was i thinking when i bought my dress?????IN MY bathroom light (which is pretty bright) i see rolls of my wonderful fat self...yes spankx i think are in order.. but then i think my god its friggin strapless.. so what if i have a wonderful pair of legs.. (thanks mom, we all have good looking legs) but this is the only thing i got from my mom i got the rest from my dads .. (thanks dad you didn't like me when you were alive and you gave me all your bad genes(GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR)
so on to my plight what do i do, no i can not return it........i maybe able to exchange it.....god i never thought getting married would be so damn hard..
Hmmmmmm i could always go with what i know LEVIS...yea...know can't do that either... god i hate my fat self....o.k. no i don't but right now i wish i had did my diet ... walked those miles.. ect.. enough whinning i must go take a shower and get ready to go to vegas yea!!!!!!!and not friggin stress so much.... what a time to quit smoking......hey someone pass me a smoke!!!!