Wednesday, September 30, 2009

mood swings and menopause

yes soul i do believe i am menopauseing hard.. and the sweats .....i can take a showeer in the sweat i have been doing....and thanks for all the support you said yea....I have now gone 8 weeks and no cigs not a one yea!

And thanks smocha yes i believe my mood swings are a hard rough part of my personality..but would ya have me any other way....????and now that cigs are barely a part of my life,....i am much kinder..sort of.

and jamie your just so sweet. my baby is just fine ,it was not the swine flu....but there have been reported cases of it at there school..and also at my sons school.....

well yesterday i wake up, and gave my twins there ninth birthday presents hugs and kisses and a couple of tears, my babies are growing up FAST!and they curl there hair with no help from mommie, because they can...sniffle....and then the phone rings , it says out of town...I do not answer out of town calls...but i hear this voice....oh oh its smocha..wheres the phone ....find the phone, and i finnally was so perfect.......sometimes you just need that one call to lift up your sprits....and as i'm talkin to her i hear her babies, cavuto, o'reilly and of course stiffy (MONKEY)and as we are talking she is tellin me about the cat walks and how people just shun her.. I think there not shuning her, they are so shock to see a cat in a baby stroller,..... there not sure if they should laugh or look down......and of course they turn there heads... now if it was me i would stare and mumble how cute it is!!!of course walk up and start talking!!!!anyways as the conversation moves on , i hear the cat shriek from hell , we are talking loud cat shriek....and ask what the hell....she calmly tells me cavuto has walk in front of monkey...just strolled bye........and her bitchy self goes into over drive.....

so this is what has been going on in my world.....been working at the school sum...but not the boys and girls club.. i believe i should call my boss and ask her whats up is there nothin else anywhere else i will travellll....i just don't want to bug her!

Friday, September 18, 2009

Mood swings and swine flu

Well she does not have swine flu or they would have called me but she does have the poor baby... now that i have not had a cig in over a friggin month, I ask you all when does this mood swinging cravings Stop!!!!!!!!!!!!!!when because i want a cig so bad I can feel it between my fingers......slowly moving it up to my lips... liting it...taking that deep breath...hmmmmmmmmmmmmm of death......yep death for me...grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr..
so then i have to strong be strong.. and now you all now why i have not posted... mood swinging to bad......
glad thou my bff made it to england now just wanting to hear how the animals are doing are they getting aliong...ECT.......well this is all got.